the honeymoon is over

one should not be in one's parents house for more than three weeks at a time. maybe its that i'm just plain tired, i've felt hollowed out for days, and i miss micah, but despite all my resolutions to patience, my witts just ended. threw the keys on the ground, stormed off, and cried some tears. as if i were six years old. i don't know whether that should disturb or be reassuring.

reading mark and cate's blog is making me homesick. though i guess i am home. you know what i mean. i'm too home. its like i have two homes. two but really none till soon. soon i have to start again. though again is never the same.

so lately i've been doing all that clean up stuff. all that shit i usually hate. cept this time. this time it had gotten so bad it felt good to throw all my shit on the floor and pick it up again. cept by the time i've done it i've mussed it up again. i'm going to learn to get organized if its the last thing i do, though probably it will be. i'm not going to be able to get a job as a mediocrily paid glorified secretary unless i lie about organizing tasks.

so cleaning has proven to be a goldmine of laughs. one of particular enjoyment has been christmas lists. i found this one, in big, capital letters, three inches wide and taped together five pages long.

1. DOMINO RALLY

2. BIBLE COVER (Already at 8 I was good at sucking up)

3. POOCH PATROL

4. HEAD SETS

5. CREATIV AMAGENER (creative spelling)

6. HODINI MAGIC SET

7. SCAMPS

8. GO GO MY WALKING PUP

9. STUDS

10. YOYO CAT

11. T.V.

12. NINTENDO

13. SIHN LANGWAG BOOK

14. BEATRIX POTER EVARYTHING (Harry Potter?)

15. HARD COVER NASINAL GEOGRAFY BOOKS

16. MICRO LIGHT

17. LITTLE MERMAID SOUND TREK

18. PANTS (My favorite)

19. SKI HAT

20. SKIES

21. TURTLE NECK

22. RINGS

23. STUFFED ANIMALS

24. PLASTIC ANIMAL FIGIRES

25. M (I guess at this point I gave up, realizing I was probably only going to get pants)