stevia & lemons

trying to shake things up a little. do something new every day, they say. yesterday it was the nettie pot. today, a new job. i liked it a bunch. maple roasted almonds. dill cream cheese. disgustingly delicious is how to describe the sticky buns. saw the sun rise, saw the sun set. loved jane, who started doing food because she sought joy, and is the type of lady who not only loves fine china, but uses it. i am excited, at least some of the time. i am happy, i think. but, despite the perfect shape of my life, i still get anxious in the middle of it all. it is too much for everything to go well, to just be easy, too much to just be happy. but i try harder every day.